Monday, July 03, 2006

Bloody Fireworks...

sooooooo lets’s say you’ve been hanging out with co-workers… co-workers that have been upgraded to “friends” recently… and you totally enjoy spending time with them because they’re funny and smart and make you laugh… and happy hour on Friday has turned into a habit… one that you’d like to continue…

Lets say that one of them is a man… and he sorta has a crush on you (like a big crush)… and you’re flirty by nature… but you’ve never said anything that would lead him on… you’ve only been yourself (you can’t help it if you’re demented and perverted)

Now let’s say you went out with them and had a little too much to drink… and so your one friend thought it would be funny to drunk text message the male friend (who had left us reluctantly to go do something else) nude pictures of herself (when she knows full well that he has a crush on her too) and then let’s say he sends us a… ahem… nude text message of his own…

And then your friend wants to go follow him… and you meet up… and hang out… and continue to drink too much… and you find out that his “type” is a pretty accurate description of YOU…

And then it’s late and he’s walking you to your car… and you go in for a hug… and he kisses you… and it’s not like a “you’re my friend and I’m just saying good-bye with a quick closed mouth peck” kiss… it’s… it’s… something else… but part of you wants to think you’re just imagining the “something else” and it really was just a friendly kiss good night… (you don't kiss him back but it happens so quickly that you can't really get out of it… and you've seen him kiss other friends good bye… so you don't make a big deal of it at the time)

But yea

I’ve been feeling soooo guilty about it… and I talked to husband… and he’s ok… because he knows that I would NEVER cheat on him… and I didn't initiate anything… but it still happened

So now I have to find a way to talk to this guy… because I really do like him as a friend… and he’s insecure and has issues that I don’t really want to get into… but I have to know what he meant by it… especially because we’re totally going to that concert (YES… it’s THAT guy) on Friday…

::Sigh:: such DRAMA… and it’s only 10:26 am

and I don’t want to get into “sexual harrasment” issues… because it’s not that… I don’t know what it is right now… but it’s definitely not that (besides… this happened after midnight on Friday) and I have lunch and take my breaks with these people every day… and I’d like that not to change…

I’m not sure why I’m posting this… I’m just trying to figure things out… and maybe get other peoples opinions (maybe something similar has happened to you…) and maybe vent a little…

Anyway… hope everyone is having a kick ass holiday weekend (I’m stuck at work today… cause that's the way the AT&Tizzle rolls)